Capitalism.

If you take the time to see what's going on around you, you realize a lot of flaws in the way our country is run.
I saw it while watching the film Super-Size Me today: we have this thing called capitalism in this country.

Hey, liberal market economy, weeeeeee. The whole idea of capitialism sounds awesome.
BUT, not the way we do it in America.
We took that idea and made things like
Wal-Mart
McDonald's
BK
Starbucks
etc.
Which, in turn, only take away the business of small business owners, (WHICH, might I add have the best quality) and creates a society and economy ruled by large, mass-producing companies such as these.

Sounds GREAT.

So there's my economy lesson for today.

My posts on here suck

Just letting everyone know
Blogging really stresses me out
for some it comes naturally.
For me, it takes every ounce of energy in my body to come up with things to blog about
while I can talk about anything on-the-spot
this is my worst writing, too
gramatically and figuratively.
Whatevs.

If I kiss you where it's sore, will you feel better, better, better? Will you feel anything at all?

Here we go again.
Headed straight down that path again.
I thought this time it would take longer.
Nope. This was the shortest time of all.
Well, if what I think is happening, is, I'll let it happen, and be done for good.
Move on with my life.

Here we go again.
:)

Misinterpretations

Now is the time to talk about 500 days of Summer.
I'll start off by saying that I absolutely ADORE that movie.
But here's what bugs me:

Everyone I've talked to about that movie say they hate Summer and think she's a bitch.
Why? How?
Is she a bitch because she doesn't like him the way he likes her? I don't think so.

I think the movie presents a very valuable lesson to anyone.
And it's different for everyone. It's an opinion-based thing.

I love the Sun

I'm on these new anti-depressants.

They make me so much more calm, nice, and sunny.
I feel so much more apart of life.

The things that used to bother me,
Don't anymore.

And this is how it feels, right? To be normal. Not stuck under this thick layer of sadness all the time.

And most people are like this, and they don't know how good they have it.

I'm more than grateful.

things that feel wrong to me.

• eating a peanut butter and jelly sandwhich for breakfast.
• being on a boat while it's parked in the harbour.
• Or being in a car while it's parked in your driveway.
• being in the game section at Target, I don't know why, I feel so out of place there.
• being the last one to finish a test in class.
  
  

Addictive Personality

So I just learned that I have an addictive personality, whatever that means. All I know is that I get addicted to things super fast. For example, After a week of drinking coffee every day, I got a headache the day I didn't drink any. What could this mean?
I have to be careful.
That's what it means.

So that's that for this blog.
Love, Andi.

fuck that

Okay, so there's this couple I see every day at school. Every single fucking day in the same place, just completely in to eachother. Looking in to eachothers eyes, just, I can imagine how they feel-- so completely in love, like the world revolves around them.

There's no one else.
Just them.
And the air they breathe.
And the ground they walk on.

What happenes when they don't have eachother anymore?

They're going to have to see the world, see all the people, start new lives and build from there. Because when they're with eachother, they're one person. And when they separate it's going to be like ripping a person in half.

Well here's what I've decided, listen:
FUCK EMOTIONAL ATTACHMENT! I don't want anyone to mold into me--to be a PART of me. That's just complete bullshit. If I want to travel the world, god dammit, I will. And if I want to blast music when I drive, god fucking dammit, I WILL.
And no one's going to be there to stop me.

I'm not saying I'm too cool or whatever to be in a relationship. I have the ability to fall in love, be in love, and all of that jazz. But really, unless someone is willing to let ME have MY LIFE, as well as me letting them have their life, I'm not willing to be in any kind of relationship with them. Not as a friend, not as a boyfriend, nothing.

And I'm not going to put up with any shit. I'm willing to wait a LONG time until the right people make their way into my life. Until then, I'm just going to keep feeding people through and through.